As human beings we are bound to be tested. It depends on the individual how he or she succumbs to the test. One may take it as fate by Allah SWT but others may take it differently. I, for one was tested yesterday evening. After Iftar, I had the Maghrib prayer and made some doa for my late Abah and also to my Mom, brothers and sisters in my hometown and in particular to my children who are all by themselves in a land far away from me ...
While waiting for Isyak and Taraweeh prayers, both my better half and I went to Sabco. We need to buy Gary's food - the Royal Canine. Also, I personally felt it's time to take Gary for his nightsightseeing. Normally, it is his weekly night out, but since we are in the month of Ramadan, we less went out for some cool breeze at night! Hence, last night was his day out and I knew that he certainly liked the outing ;)
We reached home just before 9pm. Gary seemed very happy when we entered our home. He wagged his tail and catwalked towards his sanctuary for an early sleep :D Soon after, I was about to take my ablutions before I performed the prayers when I noticed that my better half was inside the bathroom. Then I sat on a white leather sofa when I heard a message sound coming from my BB. It was from my daughter El who wrote: "Ma Pl call me. Pls" It was as if she was in pain and begging me and when I looked at the time, it was past midnight meaning at her end - it's already 1am.
Straight away my heart beat drummed faster and I was a little panicky. Worst still, my BB cannot make any phone call, but only to send and receive messages from overseas. I tried the house phone and it didn't work. Something wrong with the wiring I think. I also tried to call her using my better half's Samsung, and still to no avail (in actual fact, I don't know how to use his mobile :-D!)
And, worst still I could not seek help from my better half since he was still in the bathroom! Ho Ho Ho and the clock was ticking and I knew that my daughter was in need of me desperately. Then, I send her a single line message "Pl wait, Ma will call you" and continued to 'repair' the home phone. Alhamdulilah, after a while of adjusting the wires and connections and with lots of prayers in my lips, the phone worked and immediately I called my daughter.
Through the line, I heard she was crying as if in pain. But, when I asked her why, she answered that she missed me very much and that's why she wanted me to call her! Then she also assured me that she just came back with her brother and sister in law from Iftar. Also joking that they had chicken rice when I told her that I cooked chicken rice for our Iftar (meaning her Dad and me).
Then we talked about her job, her health, Eid, etc etc and also she asked me when can we meet? So, I told her that perhaps I'll be able to see her the earliest will ne in September just after Eid Fitri. Or in December where we will meet each other to celebrate New Year 2014! Then, she cried again and I asked her why? Still she responded that she was okay and her sister in law was downstairs and she was in her room.
But, my heart still sensed that something was not right at her end. There's something she wanted to tell me but at the same time she doesn't want to tell me. But, on my part I played the motherly role and said it's ok then, since it was way past midnight, so she'd better go to sleep and to get the Multivitamin tablets the next morning from the pharmacy.
But, I still heard her crying and my heart went to her. I just don't know what was wrong at the other end. I fear for her and I wanted to find out what has happened to her that made her cry non stopped. My fear was she's sick or she met with a mishap. But, I must find out from her brother ....
And, immediately I called my son. I told him that I called her sister after receiving her message to call her, but she was non stopped crying. Then her brother revealed what most mothers fear - my daughter had met with an accident! My heart almost dropped but Alhamdulilah with faith to Allah SWT, I became calm and just gave my ears to my son when he explained to me what actually had happened to her.
He was at the Police Station to make the police report after he sent off his sister and his wife who were now at home. They went to the Specialist Hospital @Section 20 and said my daughter was okay except with bruises. He assured me that his sister was okay and his wife was with my daughter at our home since my daughter did not want to stay in the hospital. At that moment he was also waiting for the friend of my daughter whom she wanted to meet after Iftar when the mishap happened ...
After calling my son, I called my daughter in law and from her, I received a clearer picture of how the mishap happened. My daughter was on her way to PJ to meet her friend when she lost control of her car infront of a mosque near Three Stone and she rammed at the divider which later flown onto the other side of the lane and landed on the second divider. Luckily there was no incoming car. Both car air bags inflated which showed the impact was very strong or hard! But Alhamdulilah according to the Doctor who checked on my daughter based on the X-Ray, there's no broken bones and etc, but she has to wait for two weeks before the next check up especially to her lung area. They were told that the hospital needed sometime to see the development of the impact :(
My daughter in law also related to me that my daughter is traumatic with what had happened to her and she began to feel scared of driving. I truly hoped and prayed that it won't happened to her! She needs to continue driving because she has to go to work! Indeed, I am very worried for her but for now I can only pray to Allah SWT that my daughter will be fine. Insyallah. For I believe it is only to Allah SWT that we seek help and protection. And deep inside me, my heart said that Allah will answer my prayer ...
After that phone call with my daughter in law, I had my Isyak and Taraweeh prayers and prayed to Allah SWT for the safety and health of my children especially for my daughyer's situation who was traumatic with the incident. In fact, 'accident' had been my fear each time I think of my children. And, indeed the worst fear had happened. At the same time when I ponder at what had happened, truly believe that Allah SWT is testing me, my patience and my faith. I said istigfar to him Astaghfirullahalazim many times that made my heart sank and accepted His Almighty's trials and tribulations.
It also makes me more determined to seek solace in Him for only He knows best what we the immortals do not know. I prayed to Him, to make me a more patience person and uttered alhamdulilah that my daughter is alive! She is safe and now at our home. But, still I did not know how bad the trauma she was experiencing! I can only leave the matter to Allah SWT and that scary experience and fearful feelings also made me treasure life more and only to Him that I seek all my faith and doa.
I silently uttered to myselfs "Perhaps there is a blessing in disguise out of this mishap which I know nought." Hence, my faith to Him must not shattered instead to be more stronger and accept the fate which He is trying upon me as to make me a much better person! It also strengthens my faith that we are only living in a borrowed world. It is not permanent for the permanent place for all His Creations is the Hereafter which He had reminded me many times when I read the Blessed Book Al Quranul Kareem.
So, I assured my children that I will be home pretty soon to be with them once I could get a flight and thus, I went home to meet my daughter yesterday. She was waiting for me at the airport with her brother and sister in law. She didn't want to stay at home and looked forward to my arrival. Truly my heart went to her especially when I saw the bruises on her face, neck and on top of her right breast. I was really sad to see her condition but I thanked Allah SWT that she is Alive! Alhamdulillah. But I didn't show my emotions except to continue smiling and give her my encouragement that she will be okay very soon and needs to have lots of patience during the healing period. I told her that I will look after her as much as I could throughout my stay there and Insyallah, I wil be able to pray Taraweeh with her as I had wished ...
However, when I looked closedly at her physical condition I am not satisfied with the first hospital report where she received her treatment and desperately wanted to have a second opinion when she complained her neck was stiff and in pain. So, I took her to DEMC Hospital in SA. We met Dr Adam and he did another x ray to her neck and later told her to do some physiotherapy treatment which made her feel better and more relaxed :) And she was made to wear a soft collar for a week to her neck so to keep it still and less movement because pressure from lots of movements will be detrimental for the soft tissues in her neck! In actual fact, the first hospital that she went should advice her to use a soft collar to support her neck ;( The rigid neck collar will allow stability and healing.
Anyway, I stayed with my daughter for ten days ... And, during that short time I truly experienced the blessings in disguise and most importantly the love and grace from The Almighty Allah SWT. Indeed, it is only to Him alone and none other than Him that we should seek protection and solace. As stated in Surah Al Fatihah verse 5, "It is You alone (O Allah) we worship and to You alone we look for help."Allahu Akbar! Allahu Akbar! Allahu Akbar!
Also the power of doa and the verses in the Holy Book of Al Quranul Kareem. We have to keep on praying and never stopped believing in Allah SWT. Not forgetting that it happened also within the Nite of Destiny during the last ten days of the holy month of Ramadan where all our sincere supplications or doa to Allah SWT, Insyallah with His Blessings and Grace will be answered.
Alhamdulilah, I received a very strong support from all my in-laws and in particular from my son RM and my ever understanding daughter in law FM who is always there for us during that trying times. She is also the most patient 'supir' to and fro the hospital since both Mom and El 'patah kaki' :D Other family members were there for me with not only encouraging loving words and comfort but with great deeds and ready full spread of Iftar foodies while I took care of my daughter. To these loving people with beautiful hearts and caring souls, my heartiest Thank You, and which I also believe only Allah SWT could repay all their kindness and understanding with His Love and Grace. Amin.
Me with Allah best gifts - d'forever sweet loving daughters EL & FM @SAMosque :)
(Note: To be continued in Part 2)
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